Four Months Smoke Free............

As of this moment, I have gone four months totally cigarette free. One would suppose that one's demon would be completely exorcised, yet somehow I feel the urge to smoke stronger than ever. It makes me wonder whether there is something pathological about the desire to smoke in my Hercegovian hard wiring.

When I look at all of the logical reasons not to smoke, it is always the exceptions to that reason that jump out at me.

1> Smoking can kill you..

So can getting hit by lighting. So can falling down the stairs. So can Bambi. Death is an inevitability and cigarette smoking can only be a contributory factor in something that nobody can avoid. My Grandfather was a chain smoker who lived to the ripe old age of 90, and was killed by a fall (25% genetic commonality). My mother had three chain smoker brothers, and now she has one (50% genetic commonality). Two of her brothers had lung cancer as the cause of death. Her surviving brother, another chain smoker could if he wanted to make an encore career out of being the worlds oldest men's underwear model.

2> Smoking is so expensive..

So is drinking. So is nutritious food. So is driving a nice automobile. One certainty I have found in life is that ultimately, very few of life's pleasures can be had for free.

3> Smoking is irrational...

So is human behavior. If everything happened rationally according to a predetermined formula we would not have a dynamic society, instead we would have a fixed outcome.

4> Hitler hated smoking

Everybody knows that I think Hitler was a douche. The difference between a great man and a butcher is that a great man will leave monuments standing. The only lasting monument that Hitler left was the phrase "Yes I do mind if you smoke".

Something tells me that today my old nicotine mistress is out to tempt me.